I Wish God Didn't Trust me So Much Right Now

There's an old joke that says God never gives you more than you can handle I just wish God didn't trust me so much. All I can say is God must trust my family a whole lot because we're being put through the ringer right now. My brother gets hit by a car while on his motorcycle then the next day on the same road my 85 year old grandmother gets rear ended in her car with two of her great grandchildren in the car with her. Trying to stay in the moment and not panic. My brother's doing better griping and complaining both good signs if you know the Burgess men. Grandmother appears to be ok she's more worried of course about the great grand kids. Remembering medical intuitive Carolyn Myss asking in her audio book "Entering the Castle" would knowing the reason why this happened change anything? Asking for God's healing light to be present with my family. Saying the prayer for myself and my family waiting for news to release the desire to know why things happen as they do. Just feeli kinda helpless right now.